Everything is happening so fast. I am still unable to accept the fact. After coming back to Singapore, I reunited with my family once again, hoping to spend more time with them and take care of them. I missed them a lot.
my father was weak, from his last chemo treatment session. Chinese New Year was approaching and I am looking forward to relatives to come over my place and getting my father to have some lively company during this festive season. But on the 2nd day of CNY morning 2.45am, a fatal accident happened. My father fell at the kitchen entrance. He did not yell, nor I heard anything from him. I heard scrambling sound of chairs. When I went out of my room to check it out, he was lying on the floor, almost motionless. I panicked.
I woke my family up, called the ambulance, and did CPR on him. I trembled. My mind was in complete darkness. I was in shocked. The only thing that I was in my mind was to hope that my father is still breathing. 5 mins gone and no movement. Then there was a slight movement with a faint breath. My hopes was up. But very soon after, I was distraughted. with grief. My father is no longer moving nor breathing. I checked his pulse, nothing. I felt around his neck, was stiff. I looked into his eyes, silent. Where is the ambulance!
He was later brought to the hospital after sometime when the paramedics try to resuscitate him but there was no respond. My heart sank. We raced to the hospital.
After few hours, my father was pronounced dead. I cried. My family cried. We were all unprepared, with regrets, with helpless minds. How could this happen. If only... The only thing we thought was if only... if only... We had a terrible trauma. We will never forget that morning. We missed him. We still think he is still by our side. We hoped he will be in peace. He looked peaceful. We prayed, chanted and do what ever we can to help him in his afterlife journey.
Even now when I looked back at the photos we took, I will still cry and missed him.
You are our beloved and treasured member in the family.
2 comments:
Hi Yoke Chye, I know this message is a little late, but my condolences goes out to you. I was just catching up with Jonathan and Andy in Tas and they were mentioning about your dad. I am so sorry to hear about this and hope you will recover from your grief soon.
Thank you Lefei, I am all right now.
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