Sunday, May 29, 2005

Breathless

This had being a very short week. A short week with many obstacles to face and overcome. Tuesday was my first exam in artillery. It was a disaster. The only thing I hope for is at least a pass. Also, I was appointed as the Cadet Battery Commander, CBC. Since BMT, I have not had any appointments and this week is a week to test my ability to manage my men. On Thursday, we had a spot check from one of the Military Police's, MP, group for unauthorized items in our bunks. This week, we also had out IPPT test which is also to my disappointment that I could not be able to do my best as I am suffering from my old back injury. What a waste I only got a pass.

It is really a long but short week for me. This weekend is also a wasted week even though I had the chance to go out with my friends yesterday for the whole afternoon till late night. I am still trying to catch my breath for some fresh air. June is around the corner and there will not be anymore long weekends ahead until august National Day.

Well, I just hope the time can fly faster and I can get out of the life as a trainee.

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Sunday, May 22, 2005

Think Out of the Box

Today is Vesak Day. Vesak Day, which falls on the full moon day of the fifth month of the year, is the most important event for the Buddhist community. It commemorates the Birth, Enlightenment and Final Nirvana of the Buddha.

Think out of the box. Why do we always tend to drift to a traditional mindset? There are many creative ways to do things. Take my coming commissioning ball for example. I am a member of the comms ball committee. Yesterday, some of us went to Bowei’s cousin’s nursery, Gardenasia, at Krangi. Bowei recommended us that venue to hold a comms ball as it breaks the tradition of having it instead at hotel ball rooms. I find that it is a very good idea. There are many other places to choose from such as Botanic Gardens, Colonial houses, beaches, nature parks and, of course, hotels. Why not hotels? It has always being a “standard” to hold weddings and other formal ceremonies in hotels. So Bowei came out with this idea of having it in the nursery. That idea brought us into a new alternative but also too many criticisms. Many do not favor to the alternative as it is not grand enough or maybe because it is not air-conditioned as it is a outdoor setting in a formal wear.

Yesterday trip to Gardenasia opened my views about having a ball in a nursery. The setting of the place is exquisite. The water and plants transferred the whole nursery into countryside. The moment I step in, I do not feel I am in Singapore at all. Never do I realize that this place exist in our homeland.

Maybe many people will object to that idea. Wearing blazer and tie or even a Number 2 for dinner in a non air-conditioned place is a sweaty feeling, or maybe dampened by rain, but it is a unique experience. Of course, the outdoor dining is sheltered by a huge built up tent.

I always have the idea to have a unique wedding when it comes to my own. Beach or garden is both my alternative locations. It is my dream. Why must formal dining be “formal”? Why can’t it be a more relaxing place so people won’t feel stiff?

Today, I spent my whole day doing my homework and revision for the manual gunnery exam coming this Tuesday. I cannot allow myself to fail in this test or else I will be out of course if I ever fail the second exam. Thinking of that, it haunts me. My goal to become an Artillery Officer will be dashed. I can still remember I do not like the life of a cadet. But as time goes by, it seems to be part of a normal routine I am going through until children’s day, commission day. Still, there are 4 plus months to go. I have to work hard to earn my rank and respect.

There are so many things lies ahead for me to fulfill. My personal goals are uncountable. Being an Architect is one of them. Another is to be active in community work. Lending a helping hand to those who are in need is a passion. A dream I intend, an intend I dream.

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Sunday, May 15, 2005

The modern human beings

We are the human who roamed the earth. We are the creator of technology, discoverer of science. We are advancing in a very fast pace that we do not know the amount of disasters we are creating to this earth.

We waste food. We waste electricity. We waste water. We wasted our time.

Food. Why do we waste food? The food is either unappetizing, or we simply don't have the appetite. So why do we still waste them. It is what we pay for. There are so many people out there in the world having not enough or no food to eat and dies from starvation. Why do we not think of them when we throw our left over or worst, uneaten food into the trash bin? Because we do not think of the staving people. We simply take our luxury for granted.

Electricity. We forget the need for saving the electricity. We take the source for granted thinking we have abundant amount of resources to sustain us forever. They are right. We have alternative power source from the wind, sun, and rivers. But all those have limited capabilities. What if there is no wind? What if there is no sunlight for days due haze effect from a natural volcanic eruption? What if our river runs dry one day?

Water. Water is the most essential element for any living organism on earth to survive. Without it, we will not exist. Why do we need to save water since there are so much water on earth. More than half of the earth body is covered with water. But, only a certain percentage of the earth's sea water is fresh. Advancement in technology now allows us to purity sea salt water to fresh water. But the process is costly.

In this world, we are the only species who is destroying the earth. But, we are also the only one who can help to save this home.

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Lost of words - Part II

I do not know what I am supposed to do, what I want and what I am going after. There are so many things in this world to choose from, but in the end, there is only 1 choice.

Having given a choice is a chance. Having given no chance is a upsetting.

The question is, how. How am I going to path my own future? Is there a win-win situation out there for me. I could not help but to say, I love you. After so many years, the feelings never change. But will that change in the next few years? Life is so unpredictable. Maybe, one day in the future, you might tell me that you are in a relationship with someone. As long as you are happy, I am happy for you.

There is not a need to be together to be happy. Giving others the chance to be what they want may be a better choice. Bless them. But, still, I will not stop any chance for me to slip away. I will continue to work towards what I am going after.

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Sunday, May 8, 2005

Biography

When it comes to writing a biography, I always do not know where I should start. Lets starts from my family and relatives.

I have a wonderful family consisting of my father and mother, aged 50 and 45 respectively, 2 younger sisters who are of age 20 and 17, myself. This year, I am turning 22 years old. My father is self-employed and my mother is a housewife. I can say my family financial income is stable. As for me, I am taking an NSF allowance. And for my sisters, they are studying.

5 years ago, we moved from Bukit Merah, 3-room apartment, to Marsiling, jumbo apartment, because my parents feel there is a need to change to a bigger one as my family needed more room. We all now have our own bedroom and own privacy. More room mean more space. Well, the problem lies here. The more room, the more things there will be. Sometimes, the house tends to look very messy with all sorts of things in it.

Every time when my relatives come to my house, I will try to keep my room neat. But always, it becomes messy again in no time. One of the relative I respect most is my aunt, whom is my father’s elder sister. She has a strong will of living and she is always so cheerful. Being married at a very young age, she is already a grandmother of 6 grandchildren.  My father also has an eldest brother and a younger brother. His elder brother, have 2 daughters who my sisters and I were closest to. During my younger days, we used to play together. Now, they are married. One of them, my younger cousin, had just given birth to her second child, a baby girl a few months ago. My elder cousin, she is holding her wedding dinner this year September. I had not attended a wedding dinner for a long time and I am looking forward for this day to come. My uncle, my father’s younger brother, have a son who is at the age of 10. He is my only relative who knows how to speak Japanese well as he is a tour guild for Japanese. The people who I have to thank much are my paternal grandparents. They have given me such wonderful relatives and father. And they loved me so much as I am their eldest grandson in his family line. I missed them dearly even till now that they had passed away many years ago while I am still in my primary school days.

My maternal grandparents also gave me a loving mother and caring relatives. My mother has 3 siblings, 1 eldest brother, 1 younger sister and 1 youngest brother. Her eldest brother have 2 children, one of them age 20, she shares the same age as my younger sister, and another boy age 18, 1 year older than my youngest sister. 5 of us were playful during the younger days and sometimes we often get ourselves into trouble. My mother’s younger sister has 2 handsome small boys and youngest brother have 2 pretty small girls. Being in my mother’s side June reunion dinner is often something I look forward to and also something I don’t look forward to as well. Food is the one I look forward to. But when it comes to remembering what, who and how to greet them is a headache as I do not always meet them. Her family is just too big. There will always be around 5-6 tables of 10 or more for the dinner.

Now it is time to write about myself. Time really flies. Already, there are so many younger males in Singapore completed there days as NSF. I am now still in the army and I could not wait for my ORD already.

I studied in Alexandra Hill Primary School during my primary 1-6. Now, the school has already merged with Gan Eng Seng Primary School. I feel it is a pity as Alexandra Hill is such a better name than Gan Eng Seng and also, Alexandra Hill is a very strong school in the past. Bukit Merah Secondary School is where I had next level of education. People used to think that it is a gangster school but when I started to study there, I found out that it is a school with a heart. A school that is willing to take in any students in need and from any place in this world. During those days, I had friends from Mayamma, Indonesia, Hong Kong and Malaysia. The old school building had already being demolished and a new premise had being erected on the existing site. The memories of the old school can only be recalled from my heart and mind. It is a school where my closest cousins and my respected aunt’s daughter studied there. We all had being looked over by the same discipline master.

During my secondary school days, I joined the computer club and air rifle club. Computer is always my favorite. Till now, I cannot live without the internet. Air rifle is a kind of sports. I participated in the inter zone competition for air rifle but had no luck. My teacher who is also my instructor took me into an air pistol competition and I managed to get into the 7th position after a few months of training. That would be one of my greatest achievements in secondary school after my O-levels. I did fairly well for it and got a good aggregate of 13 for L1R4. With that result, I can get into most courses in polytechnic.

My first choice was Architecture Technology. Until now, I never regret taking up the course. My passion for it grows each day and multiplied as weeks past. My result in poly is exceptionally well. In the end of 3rd year, I got myself a Merit award and a Cash award from the Singapore Institute of Architects. During poly, I participated in a few events. I went to Melbourne, Tasmania and Sydney for my Industrial Training Program which gives me an eye opening experience of the Architecture in those cities. Also, I volunteered to go to Thailand for a community project, building a small workshop building for a school. Through the experience, I learned to work and learn from each other in the team. In the end, we did even better and did even more things to improve the school environment other than the workshop.

End of poly marks the end of my first phrase of my studying days. I had to wait for my enlisting of NS to come. Between those periods of time, I decided not to work but to enjoy myself as much as possible. I went out with friends, do some catching up with them and did some paintings. I even went for long distance cycling around Singapore Island with one of my best secondary school friends. Even though I stated that I did not work during the break period, I was called up by my ex-lecturer who is also my ex-employer and friend, to make a model of a house for him. He is an architect who teaches me during my year 1 in poly. I worked for him since then. He is the one who spotted my talent in model making. Anything to do with architecture, I will definitely love it.

Before I enlist into army, I was very reluctant. Until now, I still find 2 years 2 months is long for a male. I want to spend more time with my family and also to continue with my studies. Also, by the time I complete my degree course, I would be near 30 years old. When I start my own family, I do not know whether I still have the chance to live until I see my grandchildren in my arms.

There are just too many things I wanted write about me and my family but it is just too long to continue. Writing stories is one of my hobbies!

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Monday, May 2, 2005

First week in Khatib camp

The first week in Khatib Camp seems to be like a month. There are so many administration things to do. First week, we were already thought with some fundamentals of Artillery. Also, homework are given to us to do during this weekend. Fortunately, I managed to finish all of them.

Things are very regimental over there. By the way, I am in the 44th FAOCC, Field Artillery Officer Cadet Course. The way things are going on in Khatib is like in BMT, or should I say, even worst than in BMT?

What makes my life better in the camp is the food. Cookhouse food is exceptionally delicious. Also, we had night snacks every night. No wonder people say artillery officers are fat... hehe... Also, the 5 day work week is the best. At least I do not need to stay half a day more in camp, or else I will die in camp.

I miss my bed, my room, everything in OCS. I felt at home when I was over there. Now, in Khatib, it feels more like a place where I do not want to stay for more than a day. But I got no choice, but sad to say I have to live and get used to it.

I am lost of words now. (Lost of words Part II will be published soon) I do not know what to write. There are nothing much happy to write about my first week of camp. The only thing I could say is, I am very bored in there. Oh yes, Jeffrey is staying in infantry. Did I tell you all about it? I felt happy for him. Training in Charlie Wing is getting tougher, preparing them for future exercises.

I have a dream, a dream which I hope to achieve, to be a professional and caring Officer.

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